the 44th days

I read through your fb...
I saw the thing that i doesnt wish to saw...
The name you gave me...Is gave to other people...
You got the 1 u wanted...but it is not me...
My heart, my soul, is freezed....

I dont know what to say, what to do..even dont know what is in my mind...

I m just empty

the 43th days

I m still waiting for you...But i dont know that weather you know about this...
I m curious about, how much that u still remember me, how much do you still love me...50% 30% or 0?

Do you know the love belong to you is always the same? it is all belong to u..
Do you know i m jealous when i saw you talking to other guy?I m totally sad because the endless reply between both of you!

How could i stay happier without you?
How could i stay relax without you?
How could i stay steadily without you?

My darling, I want you :(

the 42th days

Hmmmm...this recently..my face -.- TERRIBLE! need your "surgery"!! pimples pop out non stop~i still remember i scare when you wanted to do operation on my face...ITS PAINFUL! WUWU!! but i know that is for my own good...

I found the box the was inside my cupboard...all thing thing u gave me was in store nicely...i read 1 of the paper that you wrote...is saying about what we have done in the pass...i can feel how happy and warm you are...And now, i can see how happy that you live without me..i was thinking, should i go and disturb your life again? My mind tell me, "if you love her, please! MAKE HER LIFE MORE INTERESTING, BE HER BETTER MAN!"

i m still waiting for the day, no matter how hard is that! You are the only 1 <3

the 41th days

I said i wont go see your profile anymore, but i fail to do so. I went to see it automatically, and! I feel like..dont know how to describe it~ just dont really like the endless replies between you and him.

I wish to talk with you, but i m the 1 who banned by you! I just can hiding hidden corner staring on you~ I miss the day we have endless talks, chats, messages! every single night, i tell the god, please, I just want you back! and asking the bless from god to help you on studies! Is that my dream will come true?

Now i really understand your feeling, your situation and What do we really should do and needed! I m so sorry about what i had did on you last time! I will treat you the best u could IF the chance is still there for me. I miss you!

the 40th days

I m hiding a corner there watching what u did everyday. I m so glad of you that you so concentrate on your studies( that what i thought). I believes that you really pay fully attention to your studies, maybe this is the only way that i will live better that not always thinking that you are talking to bees!

But, i really dislike that! I dont like you talk to that guy! Your fans! I dont know why i dont like the endless replies both of you. I feel like whack the wall until it crack! I wish the 1 who talking to you that is me! I wish it badly! DO YOU KNOW? but you are talking to another guy and totally forget about me!

When i needed you, you are not here! I m alone! I have to find my way myself! Dont dump me so far away please!

I want talk with you!

the 39th days

The day getting closer and closer to your exam, and that remind me, the day to find you is getting closer. I was asking myself, should go for you? Is that you will getting happy if i disappear from your life? Is that you will get a better way without me. The feel is just like when the 1st time i chasing you, I dont wanna to blocking your way to get something better. Is that me being the blockage? I figure out, you seem so happy without me. You never think about me once i leave you alone. So what should i do?

Yea, honestly i want you. But, are you the same? I dont know! I miss you badly every single night! I m sorry what i had did on you!

the 38th days

Just having a good good test today~ teeeheeeeeeeee
But it is so tiring, i went home a have a nap for few hours.
after that keep stalking on your facebook! Ish~so many bees, i dont like it =(
i wish i can talk to you, but cant~
staring on your profile but cant make any noise...
i wish to know you more~i wish to give you more~
i will catch tide the chance if it still belong to me

jiayou exam :)

the 37th days

I go check the chat between me and u today. At first, we having nice talk and lot of sweet talk, that remind me how happy you are that time. But the more i view, the more that i realize the sweet talk turns to others way and become some aggressive words and sentences. I read through 1 by 1, i felt your sadness and disappointment, but you still always there supporting me waiting me. I aint a good boy friend, why do you treat me so good? I feel so guilty! and the thing i most cant accept is that the word i tell you is just even worst than i whacking you with the hammer! I cant accept myself! I HATE MYSELF! Why dont u just leave me that time! Now i know why u so hate me and so disappointed, i know your heart already cooled down.

When u always get something else to improve yourself, but i still remain the same position. It is the thing u dont like, i knew it! I break my promise again and again. Love wont bring you to a better future. But u always think about our future, and me just like a lazy bug slacking over there.

So sorry my Love 1...i guess u will oni stay in my heart and u wouldnt trust me anymore. I hate myself you know? I hurted the 1 i love!i dont dare to ask you for another chances, I m sorry!

the 36th days

today was a tired day, i was just slacked in my house with computer. keep "stalking" what are you doing. I wish that you did ur revision nicely. 2-3 weeks later u will have a big big war, i praying hard, hope the god blessing u to do every thing smooth.

i went basketball today, i saw the guy that chased u at the same time with me. Alot of my memory keep running in my mind. How do i treat u when i chasing u, what i did for u, what i tell you! i found out, i m getting cold after long time, maybe we already know each others well. But sorry, i shouldn't let you alone sometime. My bad!

i miss the day that u walked with me...i miss you,i want you! <3

the 35th days

oppsssss.........yesterday internet was down :( but i still cant sleep early~because my mind is full of you. I was in bad mood yesterday, i dont know why! i hope to talk to someone that i can trust. But i know, there are no 1 beside you.

I miss you badly, do you know? My tears fall down silently, i wish to see you. grab you back to me! i m so sorry that i hurt you!

if u give me another chance, i will catch it tide! really! no more lies!

i miss you

the 34th days

In my mind, i still planing that go longer journey with you.
In my mind, i still thinking which place that i didnt bring u go before.
In my mind, i still finding those food that we never try before.
In my mind, i still thinking which day only u will be with me again.

but~what is in your mind?
I didnt expect that you will care my feeling anymore, but at least, another chance and last please! i can letting everything go just except you!

Only few words, the only few words can describe everything that i want to tell u
"sorry my dear, i love you"

but you cant hear it!
I hope that another chance for me and you to built up another relation!!

the 33th days

i m still thinking, is that u already not love me anymore?
why can do you do something so cruel to me? yea, i got your new contact number~ so do u need to blocked me until both of us lost contact to each other? I m so sad, do u know? do u know how long and how i feel when i m looking for you but you are not here? i just want to be stay beside you, at least let me have your news!

i really dont know what to say, what to move, what to do~
i totally lost my way of direction!
but i still acting in front of people, no one really know me, but i thought you know!
BUT ACTUALLY NOT! I M THINKING TOO MUUCH!

I wish that you are still there for me, the 1 which understand me :(

the 32th days

i called u, i just simply want to hear your sound
i texted u, i just wanna share my feeling with you
i get ur number, because i doesnt want our connection disconnected

i know you are hurt, i know you hard to believe me again, but at least, give me the last chance

do u know? u the only in my mind, in my heart.
i really love u so much~ no one could replace u, just only u~!

the 31th days

今天是超累的一天！放学后，我去找了你的姐姐,Taylors University. 当时的她还在上课，我唯有到处走走！我发觉了这所学校有我想要的东西，环境，科室，设备，品质！都是我想要的！我当时想了想，我转来这所学校也不错！突然，不知怎么的，我想起了你~我知道，你就快要选科系了~我在想如果我们在同一所学校，那该多好！放课后可以一起回家，上学可以一起去！我真的有那股冲动~可惜，你已不在我身边。。。所有的想都不知道几时会实现，也不懂会不会实现~

一直听别人的意见，再加上我自己脑海想的！我真得不懂如何是好~找你，不找你~这个问题，一直出现在我脑海里~我想，我却不懂你怎么样！我真的会做得比以前好。。。我怕到我找回你的那一天~你已遗忘了我是谁~我只想你在我身边，我什么都不想要~我真的好想你~我的灵魂，我的心跳，都为你着迷去了！

我不是什么好男人，没跑车，没大房子，什么都没，就只有一颗脆弱且真诚的一颗真心，你还会要吗？

现在的我，只能躲在一个角落，为你打气，欢呼，祝福你！这不是我想要的！我要的是为你带来全部！回来，好吗？
老婆！

the 30th days

i wish i could be with you right now,
i wish i could support beside you,
i wish i could bring u some drinks,
i wish i could bring u some warm,
i wish i could bring u some advise.

i know i couldnt disturb u,
i know i couldnt contact u,
i know i couldnt appear in front of u,
but those wish will only be my dream.

a simple word,
a simple action,
a simple smile,
a simple move,
that u thought just simple, but it is actually touch my heart every single second.

i will only meet u in my dream,
my soul,
my heart,
is playing the song that belong to me and u,
i m still waiting, waiting...waiting the moment that u play the song with me again.

my dear <3, im still loving u much...please come back to me, i n sorry

the 29th days

雨天

一句话有很多意思，
讲话要想清楚，
任何事情都不要太过分，
我都还记得，你所说的东西，我不是没心在意，我都在听，
你说的永远都会是我的选择，因为，你就是我的选择~
也许，我就是那么大意，没顾虑到你的感受，可是我真得很想很想和你走得更远，
甚至想把你娶回来！我的心永远都还在为你跳动..从不放弃！！

我不能接受没有了你,也许我的付出，可能是个笑话，可是，你听好!!我真的好爱好爱你！我不是因为寂寞而找你！我是要和你走更遥远的路！

你这女人！下了什么降头？我的泪水，我的灵魂怎么都不收我控制？！你知道我好想你吗？我甚至傻到打去你的旧号码就为了听你的声音！你不要那么残忍嘛，我会改过，我会对你更好!大家一起在付出啊！

i <3 u