the 41th days

I said i wont go see your profile anymore, but i fail to do so. I went to see it automatically, and! I feel like..dont know how to describe it~ just dont really like the endless replies between you and him.

I wish to talk with you, but i m the 1 who banned by you! I just can hiding hidden corner staring on you~ I miss the day we have endless talks, chats, messages! every single night, i tell the god, please, I just want you back! and asking the bless from god to help you on studies! Is that my dream will come true?

Now i really understand your feeling, your situation and What do we really should do and needed! I m so sorry about what i had did on you last time! I will treat you the best u could IF the chance is still there for me. I miss you!

the 40th days

I m hiding a corner there watching what u did everyday. I m so glad of you that you so concentrate on your studies( that what i thought). I believes that you really pay fully attention to your studies, maybe this is the only way that i will live better that not always thinking that you are talking to bees!

But, i really dislike that! I dont like you talk to that guy! Your fans! I dont know why i dont like the endless replies both of you. I feel like whack the wall until it crack! I wish the 1 who talking to you that is me! I wish it badly! DO YOU KNOW? but you are talking to another guy and totally forget about me!

When i needed you, you are not here! I m alone! I have to find my way myself! Dont dump me so far away please!

I want talk with you!

the 39th days

The day getting closer and closer to your exam, and that remind me, the day to find you is getting closer. I was asking myself, should go for you? Is that you will getting happy if i disappear from your life? Is that you will get a better way without me. The feel is just like when the 1st time i chasing you, I dont wanna to blocking your way to get something better. Is that me being the blockage? I figure out, you seem so happy without me. You never think about me once i leave you alone. So what should i do?

Yea, honestly i want you. But, are you the same? I dont know! I miss you badly every single night! I m sorry what i had did on you!

the 38th days

Just having a good good test today~ teeeheeeeeeeee
But it is so tiring, i went home a have a nap for few hours.
after that keep stalking on your facebook! Ish~so many bees, i dont like it =(
i wish i can talk to you, but cant~
staring on your profile but cant make any noise...
i wish to know you more~i wish to give you more~
i will catch tide the chance if it still belong to me

jiayou exam :)

the 37th days

I go check the chat between me and u today. At first, we having nice talk and lot of sweet talk, that remind me how happy you are that time. But the more i view, the more that i realize the sweet talk turns to others way and become some aggressive words and sentences. I read through 1 by 1, i felt your sadness and disappointment, but you still always there supporting me waiting me. I aint a good boy friend, why do you treat me so good? I feel so guilty! and the thing i most cant accept is that the word i tell you is just even worst than i whacking you with the hammer! I cant accept myself! I HATE MYSELF! Why dont u just leave me that time! Now i know why u so hate me and so disappointed, i know your heart already cooled down.

When u always get something else to improve yourself, but i still remain the same position. It is the thing u dont like, i knew it! I break my promise again and again. Love wont bring you to a better future. But u always think about our future, and me just like a lazy bug slacking over there.

So sorry my Love 1...i guess u will oni stay in my heart and u wouldnt trust me anymore. I hate myself you know? I hurted the 1 i love!i dont dare to ask you for another chances, I m sorry!

the 36th days

today was a tired day, i was just slacked in my house with computer. keep "stalking" what are you doing. I wish that you did ur revision nicely. 2-3 weeks later u will have a big big war, i praying hard, hope the god blessing u to do every thing smooth.

i went basketball today, i saw the guy that chased u at the same time with me. Alot of my memory keep running in my mind. How do i treat u when i chasing u, what i did for u, what i tell you! i found out, i m getting cold after long time, maybe we already know each others well. But sorry, i shouldn't let you alone sometime. My bad!

i miss the day that u walked with me...i miss you,i want you! <3

the 35th days

oppsssss.........yesterday internet was down :( but i still cant sleep early~because my mind is full of you. I was in bad mood yesterday, i dont know why! i hope to talk to someone that i can trust. But i know, there are no 1 beside you.

I miss you badly, do you know? My tears fall down silently, i wish to see you. grab you back to me! i m so sorry that i hurt you!

if u give me another chance, i will catch it tide! really! no more lies!

i miss you